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I fully expected Tweek to spread the news but since he hasn’t I will.

Our visa has been approved. Now he gets to run around like a chicken with his head cut off getting his stuff ready while I run around like a chicken with my head cut off getting our stuff ready.

My wedding dress came today. I must say I’m glad my first choice wasn’t available because I really like this one. It’s purple of course.

I found out today that we might be able to pay a little extra to have someone come out to the house to marry us. Good for me cos most of my stress was coming from having to drive somewhere in January to get married. Safer for all concerned if we don’t have to do that.

And apparently marriage licenses are much cheaper here than in Kansas. That’s good to know too.

Lately it seems like one thing after another. I’ve been wanting to post but at the same time I’m tired of feeling like I complain all the time. So I say nothing.

Work isn’t as stressful as it was, I think messing up once kinda made me breathe a little easier. Needing a new car, having to deal with lawyer stuff, still not having any damn money despite having received a raise in pay is stressing me out. My teeth hurt, my back hurts, my head hurts (gotta love allergies), and it all just makes me so tired I can’t stand it.

Tweeky is currently on his way to me. Naturally I am happy about this. At the same time, in just over a week, my kids will be off with their daddy for most of the summer and I know after the initial “Yay peace and quiet!” I’m going to miss them in a way that can best be described as “emotionally crushing”. I can’t stand when they aren’t with me for a day no matter how irritated they make me. Almost two months is going to kill me.

I also found out with no time whatsoever to work on the problem that my son has been complaining of back problems in PE all year long. He has mentioned it from time to time but usually when it no longer hurts so I assumed it was the usual straining of the muscles from all the playing. I didn’t even know he was missing things in PE because of it. If I’d known that, I’d have known it was more serious than strained muscles. Now I can’t take him to the doctor before he leaves, and I have to leave it up to him. He was required to get insurance on them and I’m sure he hasn’t changed that yet just because I now have insurance. I’ll have to check of course. It bothers me which is why I’m up at almost 11pm despite being tired and having taken headache medicine that should have helped me sleep. meh

And all I have to say about Lost is…damn them all to hell. (The writers that is.)

It’s….

FORT KEHRA!!!!!

P.S. Image quality sucks but it was a five second job, okay?? sheesh

Night song is a special term I have for certain songs that give me a certain feeling. In general it’s not a pleasant feeling. It comes from those long car rides to grandma’s house in which I had to be subjected to horrible music while watching the scary darkness outside, since we could never go to grandma’s house during the day. Don’t ask why, I was too young to know.

Why is this at all important you may ask. Because lately I’ve been having that feeling, only without a song to attach it to. I suppose I should chalk it up to too much stress. Work is busy, allergies are killing me, the kids are becoming increasingly difficult to deal with, and I miss Keith. When I come home, the only thing I want to do is unwind with a nice game.

Seems I can’t even do that anymore, thanks to Vista. I had to quit ATitD because of the level system driving me nuts. That is really not a game that needs a level system. I had to install Gametap twice and when it said it needed to update, it refused to do so. So I had to reinstall it again. Funny, I have to do the same with WoW…

So while I wait for these things to endlessly reinstall because people can’t make sure their product works before the force it on the masses who buy new computers, I get more and more frustrated. I don’t need the extra stress. That’s what I have this crap for.

*not pleased*

:’(