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Guess who got offered a permanent job yesterday?

mwa-ha-ha

It was a surprise considering I was expecting to be let go in the summer when they didn’t need as many people (which still may well happen who knows) but obviously a good thing nonetheless.

It means I finally get insurance again. It means I have to dig through my papers and call some snotty bitch and tell her to stop harrassing the troll about insurance that obviously won’t cover my children.

In other news…I’m level 40! *cough*

Night song is a special term I have for certain songs that give me a certain feeling. In general it’s not a pleasant feeling. It comes from those long car rides to grandma’s house in which I had to be subjected to horrible music while watching the scary darkness outside, since we could never go to grandma’s house during the day. Don’t ask why, I was too young to know.

Why is this at all important you may ask. Because lately I’ve been having that feeling, only without a song to attach it to. I suppose I should chalk it up to too much stress. Work is busy, allergies are killing me, the kids are becoming increasingly difficult to deal with, and I miss Keith. When I come home, the only thing I want to do is unwind with a nice game.

Seems I can’t even do that anymore, thanks to Vista. I had to quit ATitD because of the level system driving me nuts. That is really not a game that needs a level system. I had to install Gametap twice and when it said it needed to update, it refused to do so. So I had to reinstall it again. Funny, I have to do the same with WoW…

So while I wait for these things to endlessly reinstall because people can’t make sure their product works before the force it on the masses who buy new computers, I get more and more frustrated. I don’t need the extra stress. That’s what I have this crap for.

*not pleased*

Basically, I have very little to write about. There’s no drama in my life (yay!), and it’s pretty much the same thing day after day.

Tomorrow starts winter rules. We’re going to be busy at work. We were busy Thursday and it was nice. Friday wasn’t quite as busy but I had some crazy calls. I think I’m getting the hang of things.

Usually when I get home and get the kids in bed, I’m playing ATitD. I went ahead and signed up for GameTap cos they had that offer. I wasn’t sure if I was even going to bother (long story) but I figured that knowing me as I do (big surprise) I’d likely decide I want to later down the line and then have to pay extra cos I waited.

Anyway, there isn’t really all that much going on, so what can I really say? heh

The thing (not to be confused with person) I prize most is my privacy. I don’t like being interrupted when I’m doing something, I don’t like people just walking into my room, and I definitely don’t like people going through my things.

Thanks to a mistake almost 9 years ago, I lost my privacy completely. Locked or not, my home was not safe. Why should it be? He had a key (and no I didn’t give it to him). I was constantly being watched, being followed, and my paranoia grew by leaps and bounds that someday just watching wouldn’t be enough. So I’ve lived looking over my shoulder for about 9 years. I even became afraid of the dark, something I used to love.

Last night, I had to drive home in the dark for the first time since I’ve been here. Last night a lot of things became clear for me. I realized that I wasn’t always looking over my shoulder anymore. I wasn’t freaking out because the same car had been behind me for a very long time (or in front of me, yes it got that bad). And most importantly, I could see in the dark again. Headlights used to blind me to the point where I could see absolutely nothing. Even if I averted my eyes off the road. I remember a time when I could just look to the side of the road like they say to. I can do that again. That out of everything is the most significant thing to me.

I’m no longer afraid of the dark.

Even though I will never have privacy again (gotta love kids), I got that one thing back.

I just realized I haven’t had a survey in a very long time. I’m suffering. Someone send me one.

I was going to blog this morning. By doing so I would have been late to work, so I passed. Apparently I’m going to try again now, even though whatever I was going to blog about this morning has fallen into the abyss of my mush of a brain.

I’m tired. I was up late the night before last because I couldn’t sleep. Last night I went to bed earlier, and still couldn’t sleep, although I managed to drift into unconsciousness far sooner than the night before. I’m still very tired, and I have a freak nasty headache.

We finally went back on the phones today. We had different partners this time, but I seem to have a bad influence (or nobody wants to work with me) cos once again my partner didn’t show up for work. More people seem to be gone on the days we start on the phones than any other day.

So I was paired with someone else who’s partner didn’t come in, and it wasn’t that bad. In fact, one of the guys who was helping us kept asking if things were okay then going “I don’t need to ask you, you guys never ask questions.” hehe We did ask questions, just not very many. A lot of it was just reassurance that we were doing things properly, which we were. Neither of us got yelled at, even the only reconnect quote I did. I was impressed. Then again it’s not Monday.

Got me a nifty new blog layout thanks to the Tweekness. Tell me it’s not awesome and I’ll break your legs, it truly is.

Kids are evil. That’s about all I have to say about that.

Tweeky decided I was going to blog about him as well so here it is. He’s considering staying for another three months over the Christmas holiday. WOO!!! What else can I say? (The answer isn’t no)

I was going to say something else but got yanked away by a child (see paragraph before last) and forgot it. Go figure.